A L E X

I may not be smart enough….

I may not be good enough…..

I may not be talented enough….

I may not compromise enough….

I may not love hard enough…..

I may not be RICH enough…

I may not be comfortable enough…

I may not be secure enough…

I may not be outgoing enough…

I may not have enough friends….

I may have wasted enough time….

I may cry enough…

I may be sad enough….

But in my defense you have made me this way.
I have been wishing for a long time.
wishing we could go back to before all this happened.

I will wish again tonight, maybe tonights stars will be more generous.

LOVEDEFEAT 

Sometimes in this crazy little thing we call life people T A L K. They T A L K  for a myriad of reasons, non of which justifies the things that they say about you. What some people fail to realize is that there is two sides to every story. What one person expresses is simply their opinion on what has happened. When people get caught up on something so horrible (they heard), I would suggest finding out the other side. If you can’t reason with yourself enough to know that there is another person point of view, then you are simply….(I’d rather not say)

Before you make rash judgements on a person, get the time to know that person. Know more than his name and interests! Take the time to know what he has been through, where he wants to go, and the reasons why he is the way he is. Don’t just right him off as a douche bag or an insincere hypocrite before you understand the situation at hand, and know the real him.

T A L K can be hurtful, hateful and down right wrong, but it is up to us to push through it. Fight for the reasons you do what you do. Live the life you want to live. There are always going to be that one person that will be your fake friend throughout your life. You can do with that what you chose. For me….I will be as fake to him as he is to me.

Words to live by.

It comes in spurts and it comes in waves, and sometimes you might not have any for a while. When it does decide to pay you a visit it is magical at what can truly happen. It opens doors to a new horizon that you may never have even known existed, until now. This energy allows you to transcend the everyday world that we live in, and invites you to the world of dreams, where anything is possible. Today I CHOOSE to be creative and in doing so I will create a masterpiece of my own that will not be judged. I control how things play out.

Limits, boundaries, and expectations do not dare enter this realm, but stay on the outskirts waiting for people to fall vulnerable and thats when they attack. Preying on the innocent and weak. They will not prey on me anymore.

Writing today will lead to a bright future tomorrow. This tale will push limits and be a refreshing thing to one day watch on screen. In the process of finding motivated and driven people to work with I have hit pitfalls, but who hasn’t? I am in the process of putting together an awe-inspiring team to make this piece fruition.

I’m tired of following dreams, It’s time I take them!

A lot of people look down on people who start projects and don’t finish them. A lot of people look down on people who talk about their projects that never fruition. A lot of people are negative souls that are jealous of the creativity in others.

They can say hurtful things.

But I can say…

I’d rather have dreams of creating awesome projects than no dreams at all.

When I flew into Los Angeles, it was dark. Fog was rolling in and I really couldn’t see much out of the window seat of flight 527.

Yet out of no where a tiny flickering light glowed in the distance. One by one tiny speckles of gold, white, and orange filled the sky. We were flying straight over the shadow hills into the valley. What a transition from complete darkness to an intense illumination. I felt a strange feeling of pressure and relief all at once—my stomach churned. Hard to describe really—so many people have seen this view, yet I felt as if it was meant for me. I felt as if every single little glimmer of light was shining for me. They were welcoming me home, they reassured me that this is where I was meant to be.

Sounds ridiculously corny but its true. All the people that told me I was going to be the one to make it, I would be the one to go against the odds and do something amazing with my life rang in my ears. As good as that felt, I also heard the whispers and rumors of what some people really thought. Bittersweet it is, but I guess that’s what happens when you go after something you believe in.

I thought this was a new beginning for me. I thought that I was going to actually start getting people to believe in my projects and inspire them to help create works of Art.

I’ve learned that just going after your dream isn’t enough.

Just surrounding yourself with motivated people isn’t enough.

Getting your name out there isn’t enough.

booking jobs isn’t enough.

being let down for the last time isn’t enough.

Losing faith in humanity isn’t enough.

walking the walk isn’t enough.

Having peace of mind IS enough.

Like those lights on the Los Angeles hills, I have a shimmer of hope that tomorrow will be a new day.

One of the most challenging things to do as motivated and driven individuals is to stop wanting what other people have. Be at peace with the life that we DO have. We need to realize as a people that we are all on a very special journey. This Journey defines us as people and  helps us grow together. When we take the time to stop and realize that we only have one life to live- is when we actually start living. Don’t forget every one’s path is unique so enjoy the journey.

—BELIEVE 

It’s an amazing thing-to know someone so well-you start successfully predicting their paths in life.